Artist's dilemma: "should" vs "want"

There are times I know I need to get back to my artwork.  These days I sit and look at my creative space, which is in my small living room, and I don't want to deal with looking at a mess while I work.  I miss having my own studio at the college, and I miss having a creative space where I actually have SPACE.  

I have canvases I want to paint.  My paints and mediums are in a crate under my work table. I need drawers.  I have to unstack the crates and pull out the things I need to work on, then I have the choice of leaving them on my crowded workspace or putting them back in the crates and stacking them up again. 

I am not terribly fond of my spinning wheel. I do not enjoy spinning on the Camelot.  I don't like the double drive.  Give me the simplicity of a Louet 17... or the old Louet s10. I do have a malacate sitting here, but I want a bowl to put under it.  It doesn't spin well on the wall to wall carpet.   

Once I get some yarn spun, I'll be able to warp and weave on my 24" rigid heddle loom.  I don't want to set it up to use commercial yarn.  I do have my little tapestry loom set up, and the idea was to  make rag placemats.  I underestimated my willingness to sit and cut 1 inch strips out of old jersey knit clothing and recycling the material.  It would be easier if I had a larger cutting mat.  I have enough cur to finish the piece I'm working on, then will reevaluate whether or not it's something I want to continue doing.  It is obviously not going to be a profitable venture, and while I'm concerned about fiber waste and fast fashion, I'm not sure cutting up clothing that could be worn is the answer to this particular issue, especially since my own clothing is plus sized, and while I've "undergrown" them, I do have empathy for those looking for clothing in larger sizes in thrift stores.  The pickings get pretty slim.

I feel creatively stagnant.  I'm torn between keeping my apartment in some sort of order and building my meager living space around my creative ventures.  I started out making my living room only a creative space, and it wasn't restful.  Now it's restful, but not creative. 

None of this is insurmountable.  I've been more productive in smaller spaces as well as larger.  My issue right now is one of "want" vs "should".  I believe I SHOULD be creating. I do not feel any want, beside that of wanting to relieve the pressure of the "should".  Painting does give me pleasure. Weaving and spinning, not so much. Those are "background" activities for me.  Things I do while doing other things:  teaching, talking on the phone...  and for me, they're about a start to finish product, I want to weave  my own homespun and dyed yarn.  I do not want to weave for the pure sake of weaving or making something specific.   Painting is the more expensive hobby, and the one where the product has the least usefulness... which means I am "wasting space" by creating too many paintings.  

Part of me wants to go back to being a wordsmith.  There is no cost, and no storage issue. Nothing is stopping me, except for the pleasure of having something tactile as a product of my creative ventures.  The concreteness is appealing and satisfying in a way words are not for me. 

I realize the dilemma is all in my head, that the creative work/home conflict is one that I've been able to overcome in the past, and find a certain joy my separate spaces co-existing in one room.  I also know there is only so much I can expect to be able to do in an 11x13' space, and that successfully making it a relaxing bo-ho living room, a farm/industrial art space, and a country antique wool-working space, as well as trying to throw in an exercise space is just about insane.