A letter from a hostage of the wall.

I got a letter from the Housing Authority today.  Despite being told last month that the voucher program was funded through the end of the fiscal year, we're now told that the government reopening temporarily has only released funding for the program until April 31st, and that reserves were available in our county until May 31.

Meaning, that the HUD funded voucher program will stop paying my rental benefit after May, should the government fail to reach a budget agreement.

There are more than 5 million individuals... over 2 million households, who rely on these housing choice vouchers nationwide.   We aren't the only ones, and not even the only ones in this complex, which has a number of HUD related programs for seniors.  Down the street from us is an entire family complex funded through HUD.

Certainly there are a lot of us in the same, sinking boat.

I resent Donald Trump holding us hostage for his goddamn wall.  As someone who is committed to the environment and to social justice, I can't, in good conscience, call my representative and beg them to give in on the wall so I don't have to be afraid of being put out on the street.  And frankly, I'll be damned if I'll do that. 

I don't know what's going to happen between now and February 15th... or what's going to happen after that.

I know that I just started feeling truly secure.  Just moved into a two bedroom with my daughter, who is acting as my aid until my medical condition improves.  Just got some decent furniture, paid off all my old medical bills and restored my credit.  Just started thinking about replacing my car which is coming up on 200,000 miles.

And the rug as been pulled out of me yet again.

There are other considerations.  Is Medicaid funded? If not, then the iron infusions I need, the CT scan for the kidney tumor, and my surgery so I will be able to restore full use of my hand will be impossible for me to pay for on Medicare alone. It's going to be difficult enough living in a car with my daughter, my dog and her cat,  doing it while unhealthy is going to be a whole other problem.

And it may not come to that.  It may be that somehow we'll be able to hold on until HUD is funded again (assuming a short shutdown with HUD funds being restored).  It may be that the GOP, having learned a lesson from the last shutdown, will not push the wall knowing what damage a longer shutdown would do to their electability in 2020.

Regardless of what happens, we're walking on eggshells for the next two or three months...
about five million of us...